Exactly what it says in the title....
Ok, so i'm pissed, i'm in a mood and I'm annoyyed... so deal with it!
Actually, I'm annoyed as I've just spent the last half hour constructing a post that doesn't make me sound bitter about needing a housemate and that I am actually bloody happy for katie but I managed to press something on the laptop and it's now all gone...
I'm not bitter that katie is moving with her other half, I'm just up in the air as I haven't a fucking clue what I'm gonna do! While katie is fine as she has something worked out I'm stuc with no a clue what to do!
All I know is that I can't afford the rent on this place on my own and that I don't now anyone wanting to share with me. I don't want to move back in with the parents as I've too much stuff that I bought when me and katie first moved in - stuff that if I go back to the parents will become redundant. Stuff that I bought thinking we would be in the house for a while, furniture, appliances, stuff so that we could both use the internet. Stuff that if I go back home will have been a waste of time.
I'm currently sishing I never even moved out of the parents house. God knows I wasn't all that sure of the idea at first, but with persuasion from Katie I finally succumed to the idea and we started looking for somewhere, then a few months after we had found somewhere and we were settled in Katie fins a serious BF.... now don't get me wrong I'm still fantastically happy for both katie and Mark. I'm just now left in the shit not knowing where I'm going to go from here! I just feel like I've ben handed the shitty end of the baton in the relay race of life...
Now, having posted this I know that katie is going to have a fit over why I haven't talked about thsi to her, but those that know me will be aware that I'm no good at face to face communiaction and that I prefer the art of writing - hell I even came out to my parents in a letter! But please don't be mad.....
Oh... and if anyone does need a lodger or who knows somone wanting somewhere to stay then you know where I am....
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
2006
Quick header to this post... I had planned to post this earlier in the week (as in before 2007) as it's been sat in my drafts folder havng varioud bits added an changed for a week or so now... so here it is... my mind dumpings formed roughly around a post from Katie...
As is customary at this time of year (and I'm bored) I thought it an apt time to look back on the ups and downs of 2006... the highs, the lows. The tears, the
laughter and above all the fun I've had...
So what did I do in 2006 that I haven't done before.. quite a lot actually. I started the year off by learning to drive, something that I planned on doing for ages and had been a new years resolution for many a year (well, since I turned 17 that is!). Alas, up till this year I coudn't afford it. But in January of 2006 I had the money so approached a number of Driving Instructors, finally settling on BSM... which may or may not have been a good idea but it did mean that I passed my test first time - after having 2 diferent instructors and cars!
What else have I done this year? Well, I've been to ireland and had a fantastic time, I've been on summer camp, I've passed my driving test, bought a car and moved out of my parents house (for now!). On a slightly different tact I've also spent the night with someone that I love and fulfilled one of my fantasies!
Have I kept any of my new years resolutions? Well.. yeah... one or two... that is I learned to drive and, erm.. thats it I think. I know I didn't loose weight... well I did, but put it back on again! Neither have I taken myself off for a weekend everymonth in the tent.. but I have spent nearly 50 nights away from home in a scouting sort of way.
Did anyone I know give birth? Yeah... one of the music teachers at school.. not that I know them that well.
4. Did anyone close to you die? My old scout leader, John, I wouldn't say that I was all that close to John but I'd known him for so long and shared a rather large quantity of pints with him iver the years. In fact it was quite probably John that got me into drinking when I joined ventures! I've spent many a morning after everybody else had gone to bed putting the world to rights with john over a tin or two... and somehow John allways managed to get up to do the breakfast after not a lot of sleep.
What countries have I visited... well, apart from Ireland I've kind of stayed in England... but I have seen a lot of England this year with various jaunts off on a weekend!
What would I like to have in 2007 that I lacked in 2006? Well, to be honest, not a lot really. Well, actually I would like to learn to be a bit more carefull with my money and spend it a bit more wisely. I'd probably like a better paid job as well... but a job with the same hours and holidays that I love (like my current job which I love... apart from the pay) is going to be hard to find.
What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Quite probably the 24th August as that was the day I passed my driving test! Or even the 30th september - when I met Matt.
What was your biggest achievement of the year? Passing my Driving test first time with only 3 minors I think... even if driving does cost a load!
What was your biggest failure? My inability to save money and spend wisely...
Did you suffer illness or injury? Nothing serious
What was the best thing you bought? Although I kind of don't like my car anymore and it just seems to eat money I suppose I'd better say the car as it's made things so much easier... even if it does keep giving me headaches with the ammount it costs to run!
Where did most of your money go? I'd like to say food and rent here, but I know I'm wrong and that most has gone on my car and bank charges... without bank charges I think I'd actually be able to save some money... I'm in the process of recovering all my bank charges though...
What did you get really, really, really excited about? Going to Ireland.... buying a car and driving it around...
What song(s) will always remind you of 2006? - Snow patrol "run" and I suppose anything from Grease.. I'm not really one to have a soundtrack to my life as so many different songs have differnt memories attatched to them for lots of reasons. If I was ever to make a soundtrack to my life I don't think I'd be able to afford all the blank CD's! I'm also not one for being able to say of the top of my head what song reminds me of what - it's when I hear the song that I remember the times!
Am I happier or sadder than this time last year? Well, to be honest I'm neither! In some ways I'm happier and then there are some things and aspects of my life where I'm not! You might have guessed but my life can be pretty fucked up at times - though thankfully (for me at least) not as bad as some other peoples lives.
Did you fall in love in 2006? I don't know... what is "Love"? I've found someone who I get on with imensely, but I don't think you could call it love. Whether it is love or not I've certainly found someone else that I can call a really special part of my life. Actually. Everybody is special and important in my life - just some people are a far more special to me than others.
How many one-night stands? Er... none! I've slept with the same 2 people on multiple occasions (though not at the same time!). I'm not one for one night stands. I know that the typical stereotype of young gay men is that we are all promiscuous people that go out with one thing on their mind - to get laid. That's just not me though - I go out to have a good time and enjy myself.
Have I been happy with 2006 then? Actually yes! It's been a year of highs and some lows, but overall it's been a good year. And of course it's over now - what's hapened has happened and can't be changed. All that's left to do now is build on the sucesses of 2006 and ignore the rest!
Heres to a happy and prosperous 2007!
Happy new year everyone!
As is customary at this time of year (and I'm bored) I thought it an apt time to look back on the ups and downs of 2006... the highs, the lows. The tears, the
laughter and above all the fun I've had...
So what did I do in 2006 that I haven't done before.. quite a lot actually. I started the year off by learning to drive, something that I planned on doing for ages and had been a new years resolution for many a year (well, since I turned 17 that is!). Alas, up till this year I coudn't afford it. But in January of 2006 I had the money so approached a number of Driving Instructors, finally settling on BSM... which may or may not have been a good idea but it did mean that I passed my test first time - after having 2 diferent instructors and cars!
What else have I done this year? Well, I've been to ireland and had a fantastic time, I've been on summer camp, I've passed my driving test, bought a car and moved out of my parents house (for now!). On a slightly different tact I've also spent the night with someone that I love and fulfilled one of my fantasies!
Have I kept any of my new years resolutions? Well.. yeah... one or two... that is I learned to drive and, erm.. thats it I think. I know I didn't loose weight... well I did, but put it back on again! Neither have I taken myself off for a weekend everymonth in the tent.. but I have spent nearly 50 nights away from home in a scouting sort of way.
Did anyone I know give birth? Yeah... one of the music teachers at school.. not that I know them that well.
4. Did anyone close to you die? My old scout leader, John, I wouldn't say that I was all that close to John but I'd known him for so long and shared a rather large quantity of pints with him iver the years. In fact it was quite probably John that got me into drinking when I joined ventures! I've spent many a morning after everybody else had gone to bed putting the world to rights with john over a tin or two... and somehow John allways managed to get up to do the breakfast after not a lot of sleep.
What countries have I visited... well, apart from Ireland I've kind of stayed in England... but I have seen a lot of England this year with various jaunts off on a weekend!
What would I like to have in 2007 that I lacked in 2006? Well, to be honest, not a lot really. Well, actually I would like to learn to be a bit more carefull with my money and spend it a bit more wisely. I'd probably like a better paid job as well... but a job with the same hours and holidays that I love (like my current job which I love... apart from the pay) is going to be hard to find.
What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Quite probably the 24th August as that was the day I passed my driving test! Or even the 30th september - when I met Matt.
What was your biggest achievement of the year? Passing my Driving test first time with only 3 minors I think... even if driving does cost a load!
What was your biggest failure? My inability to save money and spend wisely...
Did you suffer illness or injury? Nothing serious
What was the best thing you bought? Although I kind of don't like my car anymore and it just seems to eat money I suppose I'd better say the car as it's made things so much easier... even if it does keep giving me headaches with the ammount it costs to run!
Where did most of your money go? I'd like to say food and rent here, but I know I'm wrong and that most has gone on my car and bank charges... without bank charges I think I'd actually be able to save some money... I'm in the process of recovering all my bank charges though...
What did you get really, really, really excited about? Going to Ireland.... buying a car and driving it around...
What song(s) will always remind you of 2006? - Snow patrol "run" and I suppose anything from Grease.. I'm not really one to have a soundtrack to my life as so many different songs have differnt memories attatched to them for lots of reasons. If I was ever to make a soundtrack to my life I don't think I'd be able to afford all the blank CD's! I'm also not one for being able to say of the top of my head what song reminds me of what - it's when I hear the song that I remember the times!
Am I happier or sadder than this time last year? Well, to be honest I'm neither! In some ways I'm happier and then there are some things and aspects of my life where I'm not! You might have guessed but my life can be pretty fucked up at times - though thankfully (for me at least) not as bad as some other peoples lives.
Did you fall in love in 2006? I don't know... what is "Love"? I've found someone who I get on with imensely, but I don't think you could call it love. Whether it is love or not I've certainly found someone else that I can call a really special part of my life. Actually. Everybody is special and important in my life - just some people are a far more special to me than others.
How many one-night stands? Er... none! I've slept with the same 2 people on multiple occasions (though not at the same time!). I'm not one for one night stands. I know that the typical stereotype of young gay men is that we are all promiscuous people that go out with one thing on their mind - to get laid. That's just not me though - I go out to have a good time and enjy myself.
Have I been happy with 2006 then? Actually yes! It's been a year of highs and some lows, but overall it's been a good year. And of course it's over now - what's hapened has happened and can't be changed. All that's left to do now is build on the sucesses of 2006 and ignore the rest!
Heres to a happy and prosperous 2007!
Happy new year everyone!
Monday, January 01, 2007
Happy New Year!
Happy new year everyone!
And for some it may be a happier one than others - for I believe that I have won a fridge full of Guinness! Yep... that's right think I've won a fridge full of Guinness! WOO!
More about the new year later.... when I'm sober enough to type in real words without having to concentrate to hit the correct keys..
It is new years day afterall
And for some it may be a happier one than others - for I believe that I have won a fridge full of Guinness! Yep... that's right think I've won a fridge full of Guinness! WOO!
More about the new year later.... when I'm sober enough to type in real words without having to concentrate to hit the correct keys..
It is new years day afterall
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